My life these days...

Welp...I suppose it consists of nothing more than twirling a flag and listening to drama. CALL ME!!! You know who you are.

Today....

the first day of Guard camp....and it was terrible but awesome at the same time. Our routine is amazingly great!!! I can't wait for the first game!!! All the stuff we are learning is completely new though and we are going to have to work very very hard to get it perfect by mid-August!!!

HILARIOUS!!

So for a whole week I felt as if I should tell this boy that I liked him.

Funny #1: I would never WANT to do that.

The only problem was...he has a girlfriend. So Thursday night the two of us talked (the boy and myself) and he gave some great advice. He told me to stop running away from whatever the situation was and just face it. Well, that was when I thought "hm..." So the following day him and some friends went to a late movie so I knew he would be out till at least midnight. I began praying and asked God what I should do because I really felt like I should tell him. So I said "Lord if this is what you want give me the strength to send the first message...."

Funny #2: He did

So I asked the boy "Do you remember when you told me to face the situation no matter what it was?" I sent this message at about 11:45 and then told God "If he doesn't reply before midnight...I'm not going to do it. This can be your sign." I called Macdaddy because I was nervous and told him about everything. The thing about "before midnight" and everything else. The minutes flew by and the clock reached 11:58. So I told Jacob that I wasn't going to do it and he said "It's not midnight yet". (This was me NOT wanting to)

Funny #3: suddenly...right then...I heard a beep. The beep my phone makes when I am on the phone letting me know I have received a message. I looked at the clock on my phone and it was 11:59 and I had received a message from him that said Yes to the question had asked

Jacob started cracking up and I was like "11:59??" So then I chickened out and tried to send him a message that said "Never mind," and while Jacob yelled at me for that I heard another beep.

Funny #4: My phone said..."Message unable to send."

So I had two options... don't reply at all...or do what God says...

Let me tell you a little something... Don't underestimate God. Because that HAD to be him.

God is Amazing

Mrs. BR is gonna be real mad at me, but I finally did something that i knew I should do all along. I'll tell the story after I tell it at reunion group on Monday!!!

Love you guys!! Pray for me....

I'll need it!!

Lyrics

These are some lyrics that a friend of mine showed me. It tells how God is the only relationship that you need to seek. I thought it was a good subject...especially this day in age. Girls who grow up without a loving father tend to go searching for love in all the wrong places... they turn to bad influences and sex just to feel loved. All they need to do is turn to God and they will find all the love that they need. Kay and I have started a skit to it, and through this also God has shown me even more concerning what I feel he is calling me to do. I know that I need to be a missionary and i also feel that he is calling me to be a youth minister, and do these dramas and skits for real. It's amazing what God can show you.

Here are the lyrics...

She grabbed her coat

Walked out the door

She said I won't take this no more

She left the only home she knew

Left searching for that something true

She'd never known love to be pure

That's why she's always looking for more

Tonight's your night

I'm not going to fight

This feeling any longer

She's all alone

Left out in the cold

Nowhere to turn she's helpless

Well You found her there

Answered her prayer

You'd always fill that hole she felt

She'd never known a love like Yours

A love that would give its life for hers

Tonight's your night

I'm not going to fight

This feeling any longer

Tonight's your night

I'm not going to fight

This feeling any longer

We're all just like that

No use in hiding

Any longer

Tonight's your night

I'm not going to fight

This feeling any longer

Alright so here it is

Tuesday is over and I told Mrs. BR my big news. So i wanted to share with you guys. I feel as though God is calling me into full time ministry. He has shown me a lot, and now I want to follow. I may be wrong and if I am God will close that door...but right now I'm feeling pretty certain. Pray for me guys...

He does listen....

Last night I got angry. So angry that i didn't wanna listen to God. I wanted HIM to listen to ME! I thought he wasn't... but I got on my knees in my bedroom floor and turned up the song "Everything" by Lifehouse, and cried out to God. I finally gave up on the anger and listened to him... and he showed me what I wanted to know. Earlier that day we went witnessing at the mall. People were so so discouraging and it was tough. So tough that I would find myself being ashamed or embarrassed at times. Satan was EVERYWHERE that day. I tried to fight through it but I couldn't at some points. I realized that I was living for the world that day and I was being the person everyone expected me to be. Not who God wanted me to be. Because just like Satan...God was there too and I should have been listening to HIM! I learned that just because people expect you to be one thing...what God expects you to be is MUCH more important. One day that is going to be the only thing that matters. The only thing that will matter is who I am to GOD.